I’m just going to list a few takeaways from the past few days:
- I discovered I had previously been concerned about FORWARDING ME; now I only want to forward my soul.
- It isn’t that we ONLY manifest what WE want, because we are co-creating with others we are also part of their manifestations. I have a for example on this one to further the point:
- I have 5 children; 2 are out of the house with families of their own. 3 are still home. The ones who are still home are still under my care. They are manifesting through me to the degree that fear and worry don’t hold me back. The oldest of our sons is heading off to college this fall. I wanted him to leave the house to go to university and live in the dorms to further his growth. He said yes but I sensed he wasn’t all in. During that time things weren’t lining up.. just felt like everything was HARD. I STOPPED. Finally, I said to him, if this is what YOU want, these are a few things I need YOU to do. When you have those done, I’ll move forward. If you don’t do those things, it’s totally fine and maybe you go to community college this year. It took 6 maybe 7 weeks before he came to me and said, can you come with me to orientation on such a date. I knew then he was in. Literally all of a sudden, all the hard things were gone. Everything lined up even financing, which we didn’t know how we were going to pay for it, but I trusted this would happen if he wanted it to. My husband woke up one day worrying about tuition and books…how much are we going to need to come up with for this to happen. I looked at the college account and discovered $9000 in unexpected, unapplied for grants came in. It was completely paid for with a little extra. The point for this one is, you can’t manifest for others necessarily unless they decide also in whatever way that seems fitting.
- Since my awakening my energy has been unstable. I think I knew on some level but didn’t know how to get to stability. I remember a time when I worked on it and it felt better but not for long. Recently I did a meditation where it was all about stability which SHIFTED me. There was this low-level anxious hum that I didn’t know had been running in the background of my energy that was GONE. I felt it immediately but didn’t know if it would be long term or not. The past month we have had some unpleasant experiences that I didn’t react to in the old way. Yesterday I listened to a clip of a woman speak about awakening after having lived a life of hardship and that the lack of stability can make that road spiky… like a mountain to the valley… like when the stock market shifts and takes a dramatic drop. I can see that in my past so clearly now. The highs and the lows were so stark! This new essence of stability is grounding. I feel centered almost to the point where I don’t want to grow, not that I don’t want to grow but like I don’t want to grow quickly. It’s like all of a sudden, I want to develop my roots; I want to have a stable foundation. In the past I can see I only wanted the fruit. This may not make sense.
I didn’t want to write today. I was coming out of meditation and thought, I’ve got nothing to say. Spirit said, you don’t need to write anything profound, just what you are experiencing… that is your role for now. So, here it is. I’ve had a very settled day.
All my love, ~ Mel 5.0