Living My Soul Purpose

Sharing the IN BETWEEN: I've awakened that I'm more than this physical body, but I'm not living what it feels my soul has set into motion. There is, what I call, the IN BETWEEN…this is where the rubber hits the road! In my writings I'll share where I've been, where I am now as I move into where it is my soul is guiding me to be.

MEL 5.0

From Fear or My Heart

Typically, not every single day, but more often than not, when I wake up my first thoughts are, “Good morning spirits, how are you today.” I like to greet them like we’re best friends. I like knowing they’re all around me even in the mundane. This morning, I thought, I have nothing to write, nothing to share about my NOW. Yesterday was lovely, it felt like a weight was taken off of me as I acknowledged that I am full in to following my soul but like, it’s just normal. As I sat in meditation it was a time when quiet wasn’t coming; I didn’t feel the normal “LIFT” that comes with being, what I think of as, being taken in. Then a thought came in, nothing extraordinary, it was only about our son and daughter-in-law who came over last night to drop off the grand kids so they could enjoy their anniversary dinner. They owed Jimmy and I a bit of money and brought that along too. When Alex, our son, began to hand it over to me I said, “Nah, put it toward your dinner.”

If you’ve read my other recent post, you’ll know that we’re in a bit of a pinch right now as our pizza shop needed Jimmy’s last paycheck to make payroll and pay some bills. We’re short to say the very least! The thought that came to me this morning was, “From fear or from your heart.” That thought repeated and repeated maybe five times. I kept trying to shake it then finally asked spirits, is this what you want me to write about. They didn’t say yes but instead they put other thoughts in my mind that I could tie that to from other life experiences.

Just like in the book Mostly What God Does written by Savannah Guthrie, in chapter 10 when she shares her thoughts and feelings about when you’re not sure what to pray about but God knows your heart. This is the same. When you make a choice or a decision or even thoughts in your head; can you recognize if they come from fear or from your heart. I’m also hearing or do they come from your ego. As in my situation last night with our kids, when I said to keep the money, was it because I was afraid they didn’t have much or enough OR was it because I just love them and want them to have a little extra. I think it was from my heart. I wanted them to order what they wanted without hinderance. It was love.

It’s election season, I LOVE politics; I don’t love that the current climate is either fear or love. Unfortunately, the republican party decided, way back during the Tea Party beginning took the line of fear. Fear of people coming in and taking your jobs. Fear of people hurting you. Fear of this and fear of that. Now, spirits are saying to me too that the Democratic party has done and is continuing to do fear tactics as it relates to climate change. Let’s face it, fear grabs you by the balls. When decisions are made out of fear, not instincts like grabbing your kids from running into the street and getting hit by a car, but DECISIONS (there’s a difference there) out of fear, they are not for the highest good. Can you vote for climate change because you LOVE the earth instead of because you’re afraid of it imploding into itself? Can you vote for Donald Trump because you love his views on…I don’t want this to be political but I don’t feel a lot of reasons to love the policy ideas he puts forward unless you love violence. Can you vote for Kamala Harris because you love the policy ideas she puts forward? No one is perfect, including politicians but as their general VIBE…is it forwarding love or is it putting forward fear?

The short and the long here because I am struggling to “hear” my spirits, is all about where are you making your decisions from and is it possible to check in with your intentions BEFORE any decision is made?

I feel a bit empty, so I think I’m done with this writing assignment given to me by my spirit guides. If you’ve got a minute, are you willing to share when you’ve made decisions from either, fear or love and how those turned out for you?

All my love, ~ Mel 5.0

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